Living with Pain

"Are you numb? Do you not see the tears escaping, running from my sullen eyes? My eyes are swollen from my weeping. 

Do you not see that I am in pain? And I thought that you were going to be different, you made me think that you were gentler, more soothing. But no! You are just like the ones before.

You gave encouraging words in the beginning and that distracted me. Although, I cannot let myself think that you do not know what I am feeling, because you know it, you have experienced it before yet you continue to poke at my dignity. 

Do you have no compassion? Do you have no mercy? Or do these elude you? You keep prying and perusing at my emotions which you have no permission to but I have no choice. My emotions, they are useless; they mean nothing to you.

I want to run, to shout, to scream at the top of my voice but I cannot for it is shattered from my crying. I am left with no choice but to endure this pain. It is a stinging pain, but I choose to bear it for there is nothing I can do. 

I have now reached my breaking point, I would like to explode. Or just rest it all off. Oh, the agony! I would do anything to get some peace. And in my dreams, this pain will be nothing but. It will be powerless in my dreams. But then, you strike back, and I return to reality.

Oh, the cruelty of it all! And there you sit still, doing nothing, just staring. You leave me in this desolate state and say that you are done. I am all alone and I have no one to console me. And I just stand up and walk away."

Have you had enough? Are you ready to give up? Well, don't give up yet.

Life is full of ups and downs and it is quite frustrating. But we have to accept the fact that we have no control over this and that God has a purpose for everything that is happening to us. All we can do is hope that the best is yet to come.

I have realized that if you would like the wound in your heart to heal faster, you just have to let it go. Throw it into the wind where it will all just be dust of memories.

In reality if you look back to the experiences that you have had, you will see that these actually helped you in becoming a stronger person, it molded your character and individuality and it helped you know who you truly are.

Always stay positive and happy. Have a wonderful life!