A Square Peg

Why is it that there are times
I feel that I don't know who I am
Even though I know who I am?

Why do I sometimes feel
That I don't belong anywhere
That I'm always out of place?

I try to be with people
Though it seems I'm invisible
And I'm unheard of.

I should be okay with it
But I'm not, what else could I do though?
I feel like I'm too different.

I want to feel differently
But then I would only feel
Exhausted from confusion.

I don't want to feel lonely
But then I would make myself
Distant from other people.

Such a weird mess I am in.
The thing is, I don't know
How to show people what I feel.

Sometimes, I think
Others think it's normal
Or I'm just acting up.

Why then do I sometimes feel
That nobody really cares
About what I have to say?

I shouldn't really complain
I am partly to blame
But at least, I need someone
To genuinely care.